Alice in Hell

Blue eyes
So very deceiving.
Once the color of my life,
Now the color of me suffocating.

Once so innocent and serene,
Now like a siren’s song,
Drawing in those who can’t hear my screams.

Holding you captive in my sight,
What pain is yours becomes mine,
Because these feelings take hold of what they like.

The meaning of desiring to be pained,
Sadistically masochistic,
And yet crying out to be helped.

So bright blue eyes,
Just lure them in.
Let them see what’s deep within.
Let them feel my bleeding scars,
And hear my cries so distant and far.
Hold them here within my reach,
So I may show a monster’s razor sharp teeth.
Those not truly there at all,
But within my mind,
Trapped within these walls.

Siren’s song play again on the radio
Of the damned.
As they dance to the melody
Played by my blood stained hands.
My eyes still shine that desolate blue.
The color of sadness,
That which is most true.
But they don’t listen to the siren’s tale
As she sings, they just fade out the details.
Listening only to her pretty voice,
Longing to have her,
Not letting her have a choice.
In whether or not she lives or dies,
As she suffers longer,
They don’t live to hear her cries.

Sometimes sinner,
Sometimes saint.
Will they stay,
Or will they fade?
Will they crash like the ocean’s blue waves?
Or calm the soul like a blue sky on a summer’s day?

Will we live or will we die?
We don’t know until we try.
Will they see what comes that day?
Or will they choose to turn away?
Does she scream out in vain,
Or does she just begin to run from all the pain?
Will she trip and fall down the hole,
Into another world of the unknown?
Where ‘Nothing can hurt you’ as they say?
And she’ll pretend it all away?
Locking herself inside her mind?
Where they’ll never have to worry about her deceiving eyes?
Because forever they will fade to grey?
As she locks herself away?

Find those eyes, those tricking blues.
As master of disguise I implore you.
Let me show you right away
The difference in who I was
And who I am today.
Let me find my way back home,
And not have to lure you with my song.
Let my eyes shine with truest blue,
And not like the color I turn as I turn away from all of you.
Let me stay another day,
And not deceive you if you stay.
See beyond my tricking lies
And dark blue mysterious sinister and sinful eyes.
Eyes that have seen things only you’d imagine
And hold the pain no one would dare to comprehend.
But let me bring you into my world,
And hold me now before I let go of the edge of this story I tell.
Falling through the pages,
Getting caught between each line,
The letters mixing up what I was trying to rhyme.
Trying to say and tell you I need,
But you said you would help me,
But never heed my speech.

But you’ve all seen it.
The eyes of blue,
Tricking you into me believing you knew
That even my eyes deceive the truth
And me believing it,
Trying to deny I’m losing what was left of my youth.
But please don’t leave me,
I don’t want to die.
Don’t let blue be the color falling from my eyes.
Please just save me, I need you.
To make my eyes
Turn to their innocent blue.

So maybe I seem happy,
But I’ll have you know;
Nothing is ever as it seems,
As you should very much know.